the new me

Today is Day 3 post-op and I definitely feel worse than yesterday, in particular this morning was awful. I feel my lower jaw really heavy, my nose is clogged and it is difficult to swallow. My eyes burn a lot, but I am trying to be strong, patient and happy. My husband took some pictures of me at the hospital. And one yesterday. It's hard to believe but in all of them I was trying to smile. It's so scary: when I look at the mirror I do not recognize myself anymore. Next Wednesday I am going to see my OS, and he should put rubber bands on me. What should I expect? Does it hurt? I can't wait to go back to a normal life.

post-surgery time

Hi everybody, thank you very much for your support and for your positive thoughts. You have been so helpful!
The surgery went really well, at least my OS said so, in fact yesterday they sent me home. The surgery was around 10.00 and by 6pm I was already at home. The last thing I remember before the surgery is a nurse asking if someone could sing in Italian for me, then black out.
When I woke up I had a little bit of nausea but I immediately ask for medications against nausea, I was too much scared of vomiting all that blood that I was swallowing. In fact I did not vomit blood. But I am still bleeding a lot from my nose. Last night I could sleep 5-6 hours total. Not bad at all. Today I probably feel worst than yesterday, but it is a pretty bearable pain. I am trying to drink a lot (water, juices, milk,...) but that's about it. I know that the real pain should be tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, so I ma hanging in there waiting for those bad days to come.
As soon as I feel better, I'll post some pictures of the post surgery.
Thanks again for being so supportive

my pics the night before surgery

Still few hours before the surgery

I've just received all the information about tomorrow: I have to be at the hospital uled at 7.15 am, and the surgery is scheduled at 9.00 am. OMG I am so scared, plus I've found out that my husband cannot stay there overnight with me..sigh! I am not able to express my feelings today, it's everything so strange. When my husband is back from work, I'll ask him to take some picture of me so I can post it and then see the difference during th healing process.

Limbo

Yes, that's it, that is exactly how I feel now: I feel like "in a limbo".
Definitions of limbo (from Wikipedia).
1) Religious definition: In Roman Catholic theology, Limbo (Latin limbus, edge or boundary, referring to the "edge" of Hell) is a hypothetical afterlife condition of those who die in original sin without being assigned to the Hell of the damned (gehenna).

2)limbo in pop culture: The band Radiohead have a song titled In Limbo on their 2000 album Kid A. In The Matrix Revolutions, the main character, Neo, finds himself in a state of limbo in the form of a subway station named "Mobil Avenue" that is between the Matrix and the Source. "Mobil" is an anagram of "limbo.

3)Limbo as a colloquialism: Differing slightly from the original meaning, in colloquial speech, "limbo" is any status where a person or project is held up, and nothing can be done until another action happens.

Yes, that's how I feel! I feel like I am suspended in a status where from one hand I do not want the time to pass because I am too scared, from the other I can't wait to get over it and move on because most part of my thoughts turns around the surgery, how it is going to be, how bad is the post surgery, how is the healing process...and so on...AAAAHHHHH this is driving me crazyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!

Thank you very much for your help guys! I am so happy I've found your blogs, it's nice sharing the same experience with other people.
THANK YOU

Insurance company: approved

Yay! Yesterday I received the approval for the coverage from my insurance company!!! I am pretty new to this health system, I come from Italy where the health system is public: that means you do not need any approval and you do not pay for surgeries. So I was scared when I received the first letter from the insurance company saying that they needed documents to prove the necessity of this surgery. What???????????I started calling all my "ortho.... team" and lickily they took care of everything and yesterday the good news!!!!!!! I am still writing down a wish list of stuff I might need in the hospital and post surgery. It's difficult to find time with a 6 months old baby ;)